Wednesday, June 28, 2006

My Greatest Challenge

Earlier today I posted the question;
What has been your greatest challenge so far in homeschooling your children?
I've received many excellent responses. For me, the greatest challenge has been having a picture in my mind of what homeschooling is supposed to look like - the mythical perfect homeschooler. I would compare myself to that perfect ideal and those that I thought lived it out. It didn't help that I had met a few families early on that used one particular homeschooling curriculum that presented this ideal rather strongly. We didn't use the curriculum, but somehow their ideal mixed with my own insecurities created an image in my mind of what a homeschool family was supposed to be. Try as I might, I could never compete with that ideal any more than I could the image of a super-model or June Cleaver for that matter. Consequently, everything I did never seemed quite good enough. In the quest for perfection, I'd change methods or curriculum. "Ditch and switch" characterized the first few years of our homeschooling. But the minute I'd switch something new would come out that was "better" than what I was using. This was challenging to overcome; until I finally ditched the image of perfection and switched my focus away from my ideal to God's plan for our family. Doing so helped increase my confidence to homeschool and I actually began to enjoy my children. Imagine that! Instead, of focusing on what I thought they should become, I began to concentrate on who they were right then and enjoy them. It was actually a relinquishing of control and letting God help fashion and shape our family into His image not the perfect image in my mind.

There are no perfect homeschool families. There are no perfect home school mothers. There isn't a perfect method or curriculum. But there is a perfect God, who takes all this imperfection and somehow turns it into something good. To God be the glory.

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